~ It's up to me ~

Today was the Convent's carnival interhouse competition. I reached to school a lil over an Hr late. (not my fault...@ all) Greeted by my friends. Had lunch which was specially made for me :) by mi amiga. De actual competition was good...if only de audit. waznt so hott! Blah blah Blah etc etc etc. After school (which was dismissed 30 mins late) i eventually found myself in de mall ... way dreadz ... hummmmm

Aight...to those who dont know wha goin on ... disreguard de next paragraph (and YES i am putting dis on meh site)

Stuff happened today ... You know who u all are, and u know what happened and i wanna say I AM SORRY! I am more sorry ... than I will ever admit. NO ONE iz to blame! I am in total ctrl of what i do and feel ... bleh (couldnt put de word i wanted to put here) de externalities! Its all up to me in de end ... so PLZ PLZ ..... i can't say dont worry ... but just give me some time.

Aight...i can say so much more ... but ne wayz ... just some of my favorite words from my favorite song.

"we tried to wash our hands of all of this, we never talk of our lack in relationships and how we're guilt striken, sobbing with our heads on the floor, we feel through the ice when we tried not to slip we'd say ... i cant be held responsible, cuz she was touching her face, i wont be held responsible, she fell in love in the 1st place...for the life of me, i cannot remember, what made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise, for the life of me, i cannot belive we'd ever die for these sin, we were only freshmen"

| Song PLaying | Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had

~ Think ~

I wake up! Reached home, did some cross-stiching and den fell fast asleep on my comfy warm bed in my breezy room! (ah yes...the memories).

Ne ways...school today again. All I had was a tripple of lit in de morning and spent de rest of my day in de Library con mis amigas (whome i all love) cross-stiching, talking, doind search and find puzzles and using de pc's (everything but read a book in peace). Some of us got some quality sleep time on de couches! *snikker* ONCE again got a chance to have a serious conversation ... thanks for understanding!

Life these days has been kinda...i dont know a word to describe it. So lets just forget dat. Just been doin lots of thinking...round and round in circles. Life iz an amazing thing ... once u give it some thought!

Ne thing new and happening today? Nopes! Ah yes...I got my hairclip stolen from me by a savage being in a red car! hahaha. Just kidding...but it WAS stolen! (by a man in a red car) :( Tomorrow is Carnival in Convent! Yea! (I think)

"The hardest way to love you is to leave you...and i know its being masochistic, but so be it!...why push for the answer when its the last thing you want?" Food for Thought!

| Song PLaying | - NONE! Ha! :-)

~ Only in my mind ~

Oi. I went to school today ppl! Amazing eh! Reached late, limed away de 1st period instead of goin to class. Classes were normal....except for OFCORSE de carnival ting on de promanade which was VERY VERY distracting! I mean ...HOW can i (or ne one else) possibly concentrate on literature when they playing sweet soca nice and loud outside?

In general today was an eventful day. Fulfilling! Academically lacking...yes! But got some time to think and talk bout some serious things. (Btw 'D' I'm not gonna leave u ok! I will be alright!) It's times like this i need to thank God for my Friends! Real friends are so hard to find ppl, never take them for granted! Dont forget that!

Ne ways...after school, we went up to pres...lime ah 5....had part of my body kidnapped and held hostage by my dearest friends! (dont worry ... i got it back... im ok now) :-) Got a massage today to! Went to de mall after, just to do some business...where i was forced to part with my precious money (physically @ least) Aight....so dat was my day. Nothing to intriguing for the readers...unless ofcourse u can read my mind! Oh yes...incase i forget...i kinda 'convinced' de ppl in my projects class dat i was indeed INSANE! :S Well personally, i dont think bursting out into a groovy rendition of de alphabet in de middle of class is being 'crazy' ... i DID get de teacher to join in! So ha!

Aight well daz de stories ... Just remember ppl...be thankful for what u have! Cuz u never know when it will all be taken away from u!

| Song PLaying | Del Amitri - Driving With The Brakes On

~ Hot ~

The day is near the end...and i havent done ne school work, cept read some GP notes. Finally got some time for a much needed phone conversation. The reason for it being needed waznt wanted ... which makes it kinda void dont u think? Ne ways...de pain gone away. YEA! but now im overheated! Literally physically overheated! (some kinda thing with meh illness and meds etc) It happens daily...but today its BAD! "i feeling hot hot hot' (8) hahaha.

Ne wayz....food for thought ppl

Is there any logical explanation for sacrificing your happiness and joys just so you lessen the chances of pain?

| Song Playing | - Our Lady Peace - Innocent

~ Morning Blues ~

Good Morning everybody. What a wonderful Tuesday morning it iz! You know what makes it so wonderful? Cuz i am HOME and u are in SCHOOL! Hahahahaha. Aight aight, let me contain myself.

I wake up dis morning and didnt feel like goin to school. I was in pain! However, dat excuse is even more valid NOW cuz meh feet killing meh more dan it was when i wake up. Dis kinda pain, i can find NO pleasure in! :-(

So de plan for 2day will be to finish meh GP essay and meh Econ Essays. How exciting! Daz bout it. I go update dis again as de day progresses. Laterz!

| Song Playing | Staind - It's Been Awhile

~ Sand Man zzzz ~

Way dreadz ppl. What a day! I went to sleep real late last night (2am) and catch meh royal to wake up dis mornning. In de car goin to school i coulda barely open meh eyes. So i reach late as usual...and only had 2 classes in my 8 period day. It was a total waste academically....but i sure did get lots of time to catch up con mis amigas.

We had live entertainment all day cuz of some kinda carnival ting on de promanade. (de word 'entertainment' is questionalble)

I real eat plenty ting today! So by de evening period, i was full and contented and ready for a long nap. Sadly it was then i had de 2nd class (lit) in which i LITERALLY fell asleep! Dat was heavenly! After class i headed to lessons, where i almoste fell alseep again. Come on ppl, tell me it waznt just me! There was something in the AIR making me just wanna nod off! No fault of my own *gulp*

Aight...something else i hadda say....ah yes. QUESTION: Is the Trini accent to hard to understand? Should i revert to the proper english in which, in literature class i am a master of? Tell meh wha alya tink nah! Cuz ya see, my mother dearest 'disapproves' of my 'degrading' portrayal of english on dis site nah. :S So comment on dis one! Goodie :-)

btw...De time i take to make and post dis entry 7 songs played! But dont worry i wont name all!

| Song Playing | Chris Isaak - Wicked Game

~ Focus ~

Its Sunday everyone! Tomorrow is school! :( Darn. Yesterday i went to de pool, 1st time for de yr. Froze half to death cuz de place was soo cold! But it was a good workout i guess.

I have real work to do ppl and i just plain and simple "Slacking off!" Thats is soooo not good. I need to get back dat discipline to focus on meh academics yes. Ne suggestions? Actually i know wha i have to do ...

Oh well, what else? I donno....... Food for thought

"Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when
they are right beside you and yet you can never have them...when the
moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them? "

| Song Playing | Seether - Fine Again

~ Finally ~

Aight. So I've been told I NEED to update! Odd you should say that Favi cuz i know ppl gonna start saying "TMI" ie Too Much Information. Which brings me to anodda pt. ... I really cya reveal all my thoughts here considering in additon to thinking bout ideas and things, i think bout PPL as well...and dem ppl gonna have access to this blog and well ya know...sometimes thoughts are better left UNKNOWN to de odda.

Ne ways. Its been a week since ive update and indeed lots have happened...nothing too significant. Just de usual academic and personal dramas. Maybe i should take dis chance to 'hail out meh peeps' hahahaa. Diana dearest (who doesnt have de net), Favi, Rin, Marc (alya check out his Crazyinsane thoughts to ok), de pres crew (u know urselves) and well ofcourse meh FAMILY! Okie Dokie...ppl dont forget to comment. Bye

| Song Playing | Vervepipe - The Freshmen

~ Newbee ~

Heyyy. Wow...I'm soppose to type something here, so daz wha i doin. I still in de "get over de shock" phrase of having dis ting eh, so forgive de lack of sense in wha i saying here. I hope de trini accent aint to hard to comprende! :) Ok...well...we go see how dis turn out. Ofcourse incase ya dont know as yet...all dis iz through de genius work of Marc...THANKS A LOT Love! laterzzz