I find myself in conflict when having to answer certain simple everyday questions.
Question: So you like going out? Like the outdoors?
Answer: hmmm (big pause...and so this entry begins)
How do I answer? What do I base my answer on?
Do I love being indoors or do I love being indoors because I have to be?
My mind tries to differentiate between my lifestyle and desires. They're aren't exactly in sync. So I try to remember... I look back to the days when I wasn't ill...or I try to imagine how things will be now if I wasn't... and then my answer changes. I love being outside...I love rolling in the grass and running around and climbing trees and walking aimlessly looking at and observing everything. I love just sitting outside sprawled on the ground with a book or a pad and pencil. I love going for jogs and riding a bicycle around. I love going to meet people and see places. I love the outdoors ... I just don't do any of the above. Not anymore... not as yet...
It seems as if I make the life I have to live, the life I want to live...
My answer ends there, but the desire goes on....
6 comments:
soo.. a simple q.. do u like goin out... why pause?
yes.. the end.. word
Sometimes, we need to sacrifice something, in order to gain something. Losing something you love now, might benefit something later.
If you can't be the person you want to be, then strive like hell to be that person all the same.
welcome back. I explained why already. why ask why? word
Barthyyyyyyy. I misss u!
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Thanks so so very much
Love you babe!! :)
It's a pity one develops an appeitite for something only upon the first taste...
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