Showing posts with label allergy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label allergy. Show all posts

Monday, October 11, 2010

Rituximab treatment: The unblogged story (till now)

The Infusion Related Anaphylactic Reaction

December 2008 was the first time I had done this treatment and it was also the first time it was being done in Trinidad and Tobago. That was the first time I had an anaphylactic reaction and the first time I had to spend a night in a hospital.

I was a well read, knowledgeable patient at the time having read countless medical journals, case studies and medical trials on this drug, but nothing prepared me for what was about to happen. Now short of 2 years later, it happens again... I may not have been up to date with the latest trials and reviews, but I was prepared to recognize the onset of what would become one of the worst experiences I think someone can have.

Present day:

I rushed down lunch as the docor was ready to start the infusions. I had already been given my panadol, gravol, piriton and 100cc hydrocort. A fellow patient and I began the infusion at 1:00pm. The doctor told me I need to lie down or else the flow would take forever, so I grab my donut dessert and settled onto my bed (which I think btw was made for short ppl). I munch munch on my donut, with earphones on ... munch, swallow, munch swallow, munch, swallow, munch.... swallow?

My ears felt weird? I put down the donut and handed it over to mom who asked me if I was done. I said 'yea, just now'. I took off my earphones and tried to swallow again... it's worst. Mom asks 'what happen?' ... I respond 'something's happening'. Here it was... the beginning. I closed my eyes and counted 10 seconds: 1.... 2... 3.... 4.... 5.... 6.... 7.... 8... 9.... 10 *swallow* ..... omg I cannot swallow!

I called out a nurse and mostly with gesticulations, I told her 'throat, itchy, pain, swelling, cannot swallow'. I must have been about 1 minute now since the onset of the 1st strange ear feeling. She slowed down the i.v. drip and asked if it was getting better... I didn't respond. Because I couldn't. I couldn't talk. The doctor came and ordered it to be 'dc' (discontinued) and immediately hit me up with another 100cc's of hydrocort and chlorpheniramine. At that point, 2 minutes later, I could barely breathe and my heart was racing! My on average low BP was now sky rocketing. Thankfully I had about 1 inch of my passageway open in my throat so I labored to breathe, unable to talk or swallow and unable to breathe through my nose. I stayed calm though... or at least I eventually made myself calm. Put simply, it was very scary.

They started a new bag of saline solution to flush my veins.

All we could do now was wait... I just needed O2 and time. Thankfully I had both. Things didn't get worst... I lay there for 4 hrs after, trying to breathe and stay calm. Trying to swallow felt like razor blades. Trying to talk felt like... I cannot describe. I couldn't talk. Things got better. The infusion was restarted. No more reaction. Doc and nurses checked on me constantly! They were absolutely efficient. Had I not alerted them the moment the symptoms started, my entire air passage way would have closed in and well... it would have been a scene from Grey's or House with throats being slit open and tubes being shoved down. Thank God it didn't reach to that.

5:00pm I could talk again a bit. 5:30pm 2 friends dropped in to see me, one of them brought a mocha chiller! 6:15pm, I was able to sip and swallow my chiller... and never in my entire life had I been more happy and grateful to feel something go down my throat!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Day 2 - I need Mittens

It's now Monday morning... I'm gonna give all I have to make this entry coherent.

I tried calling it a night by 2am. I recall being so drugged and so tired and so sleepy... but all I could do was toss and turn and roll from side to side (a blessing that is I must add) ... and mostly, all I could do was scratch!

5:00am... mom wakes me up asking if I need her to rub some calamine lotion on me. Guess all my scratching alerted her.

5:20am... I check myself. oh... em... gee... hives have spread. My entire back and legs :( ... I cannot begin to describe the torture of that kinda itching... especially when you cannot reach to scratch. Something odd to note, I am getting hives breaking out on the same spot more or less, on either side of my body... like a mirror image... mimic game... According to a friend 'your allergies have OCD'

And no sleep... I feel spazed, spaced, zoned & wired all at the same time.

My bro took a picture of me and had quite a laugh. I look like Fever Ray from her 'When I Grow Up' video. Calmine lotion all over my head and face and neck... etc etc etc. His words were "You look like you're gonna make a music video... or shave" haha

It's 8:00am... I am lying on bed trying to ignore the itching. Hoping the meds work soon and that I can possibly get a nap. I find myself shaking like a junkie in withdrawal, eyes wide open and vision distorted... I really need sleep... and relief... and you

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Allergy

Idk, I'm thinking... maybe I should document this. Seeing as I'm breaking all the rules of silence and all...

So here goes:

Yesterday I was really idle, just cannot settle down... I decided to get out my head a bit and watch a movie instead. I saw Shutter Island on my External, 720p... nice! Popped in my new headphones and pressed play. Whoa! Sounding and looking SO good! I paused the movie after 2 minutes to go settle some stuff so I can watch it out w/o anything left undone... and that's when the 1st recognition of symptoms began.

My head was itchy! I didn't take it on... watched out the movie... 2hrs of a psychological thriller... good stuff! When it was done, I got up and felt sooooooooooo disoriented! Did I really just drown myself in the movie land so much? Ahh I was itchy! 'Maybe I'm miserable!' I think... I called up a friend, who confirmed that I just miserable as usual. I decided to take a shower, maybe that would cool me down, stop my head from feeling like it's on fire. This was 9pm

By 10:30pm... I am trying to watch tv (something I never ever do)... anything to distract me from dis itching. My entire head started feeling like I got attacked by a dozen good sized stones and just bumps and heat and redness remain :(

2:00am.... I realize I am in trouble... but I distract myself being miserable with another

3:00am... My day begins...without even my night ending. I have broken out in hives! I text a few doctor friends & try not to panic... just lay down and try to sleep... try...

7:00am... after trying hard to sleep but only itchy, and after taking some piriton etc... I get off the bed to the allergic reaction being worst! Whole body... especially from neck up :( ... my poor ears

7:10am... I page my doctor

7:25am.... He calls me. Speculation is that I am exhibiting symptoms of an allergic reaction to the actual drug that doctors prescribe for allergic reactions! haha the Irony... the irony...

8:30am.... Got and took new meds

All I want to do at this point is listen to Nine Inch Nails - Piggy 

1:00pm... Things are getting worst! I am drugged, itchy, covered in calamine lotion & nothing's doing... But least I'm not getting anaphylactic ... I can breathe, I can swollow... I should sleep

I sleep for about 2 hrs... nerves shot. Feeling shaky & absolutely drained

4:00pm... I wake up... the welts have finalllllllllyyy gone down a bit. Itchy still, head on fire, ears on fire.. but the welts are down!

5:00pm... I am still very drugged, my head lolling ... my hands shaking... my speech rambling

7:00pm... I look like I'm playing Jouvert... I acting like I'm a total druggy in this this jouvert band

8:00pm.... Zoned... trying not to scratch... praying it all goes away. Loving the love I've been getting & missing the love I'm not

Hey Pig... Hey pig piggy pig pig
Hey M0th3r fu(k!ng pig!