Showing posts with label SSRI. Show all posts
Showing posts with label SSRI. Show all posts
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
Black Hole
Labels:
depression,
drugged,
eyes,
love,
pain,
paroxetine,
paxil,
pupil,
sadness,
side effects,
SSRI
Monday, June 06, 2011
Am I high?
I woke up this morning... floating. My body was bobbing around, spinning, drifting around and around and upside down. My limbs were resting on a cloud of nothingness. It was so sooooo unbelievably amazing.
I wasn't moving though... I was just lying there, physically dead to the world, but floating around effortlessly on the inside. I had to force myself awake... I could barely open my eyes.
My head... my head was pounding. I didn't want to wake up.
I eventually got downstairs, made a cuppa coffee and sat down............... I covered it and went right back on bed. After awhile I opened back my eyes and noticed that all moving objects had a trail behind it. Like those cursor options you get on your computer, to leave a trail.
At this very moment, it's still happening. A trail *moves my hand* ... yup... a trail!
Mom asked me what drugs I'm taking. Dad thinks I'm getting sick. But I'm okie...
My pupils are still dilated
I wasn't moving though... I was just lying there, physically dead to the world, but floating around effortlessly on the inside. I had to force myself awake... I could barely open my eyes.
My head... my head was pounding. I didn't want to wake up.
I eventually got downstairs, made a cuppa coffee and sat down............... I covered it and went right back on bed. After awhile I opened back my eyes and noticed that all moving objects had a trail behind it. Like those cursor options you get on your computer, to leave a trail.
At this very moment, it's still happening. A trail *moves my hand* ... yup... a trail!
Mom asked me what drugs I'm taking. Dad thinks I'm getting sick. But I'm okie...
My pupils are still dilated
Labels:
depression,
drugged,
eyes,
love,
pain,
paroxetine,
paxil,
pupil,
sadness,
side effects,
SSRI
Sunday, June 05, 2011
Dilated
Oh Jesus
In my entire life, I've never seen my pupils this dilated
I actually, shocked myself! I stood over the sink last night, brushing my teeth and I watched myself in the mirror... & like something out of the movies, I did a double take! like 'wait, what?!' ...... I stared into my own eyes and thought 'what the hell!' ............. 'I must be imagining things'
Later that night, I lay down next to mom on bed and was watching her eyes and I suddenly had an idea!
'WAIT' I said
I ran into another room, scrambling around looking for a little mirror.
I got one and came back next to her..... we faced the exact same light and I watched her eyes..... then watched mine....
HUGE DARK HOLES INTO MY SOUL!!!
My eyes were super dilated!!!
Now tonight, I've actually been told that I look 'drunk' or 'high' or 'on something' ...
You should see my EYES!!!
In my entire life, I've never seen my pupils this dilated
I actually, shocked myself! I stood over the sink last night, brushing my teeth and I watched myself in the mirror... & like something out of the movies, I did a double take! like 'wait, what?!' ...... I stared into my own eyes and thought 'what the hell!' ............. 'I must be imagining things'
Later that night, I lay down next to mom on bed and was watching her eyes and I suddenly had an idea!
'WAIT' I said
I ran into another room, scrambling around looking for a little mirror.
I got one and came back next to her..... we faced the exact same light and I watched her eyes..... then watched mine....
HUGE DARK HOLES INTO MY SOUL!!!
My eyes were super dilated!!!
Now tonight, I've actually been told that I look 'drunk' or 'high' or 'on something' ...
You should see my EYES!!!
| This is a pretty accurate example |
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