Words Unspoken

Wow I haven't visited this blog since 2017. It's March 2019 right now. I have a lot on my mind and I feel as though I need to sta...

I want to kill myself, but I also want to go to gym tomorrow. I want to end my life, but I also want to read a book & see the new spid...

So, I'm 30 years old now. When I started blogging, I was just 17. In the last year of my 20's, I discovered 2 grey hairs! It fasc...

I went today to get either an extraction done or start a root canal, depending on if the tooth could be saved our not. After removing decay...

by Yi Shin Chiang 'The thing about getting older, is that you don't need everything to be possible any more, you just need ...

I just had a memory  As a teenager growing up, I used to hang out with a few close friends. They used to sometimes joke about me bein...

Dear Mum, Today was your birthday. I didn't leave the house today, but when I do, I think I might buy you some flowers, or maybe I sh...

Times like this I find myself juggling between wanting to just give up and die right now... Or get better and fight like hell for everythi...

I'm just lying here, listening to my body and feeling every ounce of pain. It's not just the pain associated with moving or not bei...

It's the middle of March and I'm blogging for the first time for the year really... Today, I went to see a new doctor who deals wi...

2014 was quite a packed year. Final year project, final exams, graduation! Made new friends and started working Drove many new places Ga...

I'm teeming with a host of negative emotions. Angry, hurt, annoyed, guilty, foolish, used, weary and tired... so very tired. What a ser...

As soon as I remove myself from being the strong one, I fall apart. It's sickening

One of the hardest thing about having MDD, is the arbitrariness of time when sadness and hopelessness hits. I've been on medication for...

It's been such an emotionally confusing day. I'm questioning things about myself, like how good of a person can I really be if I ca...

I'm constantly in pain, and it's only getting worse. I'm losing my ability to do more and more things each day... Need to do tr...

It's said that grief comes in waves and it's punctuated by important events in our lives... well this is one. When you lose a par...

I need your help, advice and guidance so much right now Ma... :'( This is such a helpless feeling... I need you Why did it have to be...

He lay sleeping next to me but I couldn't sleep any more... I woke with a flare I quietly (or at least I tried) came off the bed to g...

I'm Joining this challenge - I've got wayyyy too many books piled on my shelves waiting to be read. Due to school demands, I...

Love myself Lose 20lbs Aim for A's in all my 2nd semester courses Check up on my dad more often Be more compassionate Read more b...

A part of me believed that when you died, you would have taken this pain away from me, that I would have finally been healed. The immensit...

I started cross-stitching yesterday. I eagerly ordered a kit online complete with pattern, cloth, thread and needle. I started doing it a...

Dear Ma Today was a big day for me. I missed you a lot during it all. Firstly, I drove into POS by myself - heart of Port of Spain! I had t...

I brought in midnight the day of my birthday today, thinking about you Mom. This is the 2nd birthday I'm having without you here with ...

I’m such an idiot! Yesterday evening we bought a large pizza. I had 3 slices! Last night I got a terrible diarrhoea and knew it was the pi...

“ There’s a fine edge to new grief, it severs nerves, disconnects reality—there’s mercy in a sharp blade. Only with time, as the edge ...